jaekey's Revelife

Monday, June 15, 2009

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 23:35:23 GMT

i am always amazed of how little we are. little in this world. people with great power probably don't even see humans as precious life, but they see humans as expendable to reach their needs. politicians probably act and pretend like they care about the casualties of war or death. granted not everyone is not like that, i think its safe to say a lot of people are like that.

compared to a building, we are small. compared to the city itself, we are tiny. compared to the continent, we are a spec. compared to the planet, we are less than microscopic. compared to the universe, we are literally negligible.

i am always amazed of how little we are, but God is bigger than the universe but sees us as His own. how special are we? we don't even deserve it.

i am always amazed of how little we make God. Laws of nature and science cannot explain God. People deem that as a reason for Gods non-existence. Laws of nature and science cannot explain God because its just not possible, God is so much bigger than science. Humans try to rationalize everything.

i admit, my faith in humanity is very low.

crazy thoughts

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 14:21:04 GMT

God is all powerful and can do anything He wishes or pleases. Given.
God lives in and out of time. a billion years to us can be a matter of seconds to him. Given.
God created all things (nature), and has given humans free will. Given.
God's purpose for man is so that we may choose to love him and worship him. Given.
God loves his creation. People just manipulate nature according to their own will to make synthetic materials.

one crazy thought...
what if God created nature (besides humans) and programmed it to run its course. Because face it, nature is like a never ending machine.. for example, animals live to reproduce and just follow out their genetics and act on drives and impulses. what im trying to say is what if Nature is a program that can be used infinitely times over?

lets say God allows things to happen and creates the world and the universe. He creates nature and man. Nature being that program and man having free will. He just wants man to fulfill that purpose of loving Him. So.. He waits and sees what humans do. He examines us for hundreds and thousands of years (in human time). In our lifetime right now.. obviously we have failed Him many many times..

k, now lets say before us or even at the same time, there was/is another group of beings He "examines". Same nature, same earth, same universe, just different people. ( might not even be "human" ). kinda like a parallel univserse. what if his experiments of people before us fulfilling the purpose of loving him failed so horribly that he had to reset?

what if we're just an experiment and if we fail horribly, it'll just repeat again? who knows.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Mon, 18 May 2009 13:07:29 GMT

Father open the skies
Flood the earth with your light
this is love, to break a world indifferent

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Thu, 07 May 2009 02:51:22 GMT

i've never really expressed feelings for my parents and showed them the appreciation they rightfully deserve. i've realized that i love my parents and have great respect for them.
my mom, i see how hard she works to support the family. cooking, cleaning, working. shes like superwoman. i thank God that i had someone like her to take care of me and see me through the years. and i still have her and i hope she never leaves :D
my dad, this man has gone through so many things in his childhood that he shouldnt have gone through. its unlawful, immoral, plain unfair what he did. he went through so much to get to this point. and just recently it came so close for all that to go in vein. the past few weeks he's been really trying to turn his life around. i want to be there for him. to be his support and mainly to be his loving son.
i'm really blessed that i grew up into a christian family. ever since i was little i've been in the church environment. this constant environment has seriously influenced the development of my identity.

i didn't choose to be born into this family, to be born into this life of mine. i didn't choose to be born me, to grow up experiencing the things i did. no regrets however, and just trust in my God. i can't possibly fathom all that is God and i fully realize that it is impossible to understand. but knowing and experiencing love is an imprint of God in my life.

christianity isn't a religion.

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Tue, 21 Apr 2009 02:40:28 GMT

i'm at a point in my life where i'm not really concerned with anything except school. before for some reason my mind was always occupied with other silly things like girls and definitely not with school. - -;
i think this would be a great opportunity to finetune myself when it comes to being a better person and overall a better christian.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 22:17:27 GMT

dear God,
i don't know what to do. everything is so hard. please guide me in any way you can.

Friday, April 03, 2009

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 22:03:38 GMT

everything in moderation.

i trust that everything that happens is Your will.

many times people turn away and turn back to you. some times people turn away and keep going away and away making it even harder to reach them. falling deeper and deeper into sin and life of misery. i know sometime my effort alone is not good enough and it won't be enough to bring someone back but with You anything can be done.

There is someone i need to reach out to and he needs all the help he can get because he cant do it alone.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 07:21:04 GMT

God doesn't seek you in "foreign ways" but seeks you that best suits you. this is how i hear.

Nothing compares to
Life I have in You
Nothing of this world satisfies
So, I want to let go
I want to let You know
All that I have to give is Yours

Here I am
As gold to the fire
I will surrender to Your hand
To this place
Lord, I have come ready for Your touch

It's all for You
It's all for You
I'm letting go
I'm letting go

What is it in me
That hangs on for so long
Why do I fight the tears that come?
I work so hard to
Keep in control when
All that I want is to let go

I'll take this life
And lay it down
I'm letting go
I'm letting go
My hopes and dreams
Here at Your feet
I'm letting go
I'm letting go

And I am ready for Your life
And I am ready for You now

all for you-starfield

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 04:08:18 GMT

praise just sometimes brings you back

In my heart, in my heart, there's a fire burning
A passion deep within my soul
Not slowing down, not growing cold
An unquenchable flame that keeps burning brighter
A love that's blazing like the sun
For who You are and what You've done

And as the fire is raging on
So Your praise becomes my song

The whole earth
Is filled with Your glory, Lord
Angels and men adore
(Mountains bow and oceans roar)
Creation longs for what's in store
May You be
Honored and glorified
Exalted and lifted high
Here at Your feet I lay my life

From the ends of the earth
To the heights of Heaven
Your glory, Lord, is far and wide
Through history You reign on high

From the depths of the sea
To the mountain's summit
Your power, Lord, it knows no bounds
A higher love cannot be found

So let the universe proclaim
Your great power and Your great name

filled with your glory-starfield

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 00:03:12 GMT

how does God work in my life?

everyday, it gets harder and harder to see how this is happening. no matter how far away i go, i do know he is watching. priority is changing very fast and has changed significantly already.

i wonder what would i happen if i give up my life and just go and become a fisherman.